CE's

I did 12 hours of x-ray Continuing Ed this weekend. EVERY speaker sounded just like Charlie Brown's Teacher: Whaaa whaaa whaaa Wha Wha! Here's me: SNORE! What irritated me the most is that the six girls in front of us crocheted, read celeb mags, talked out loud or went to their cars and slept. Bitches! I guess I'm only bitter because I'm jealous! I so needed a nap and wasn't brave enough to lay in the car. Hrumph!

I'm sorry to say to Dr. Tim: this year blew chunks!! Boring or weird speakers, dull topics, bland food. Next year I may come up with the extra out-of-pocket money to stay at the coast. I hear that one is great.

I will elaborate later but I am so sleepy. I NEVER get up before dawn in my real life!!

Happy Week!

No longer 'D-Mac'

D has finally learned how to say his name! Before, when asked what his name was he would say "Mac" which shortly turned into "D-mac" which was so cute and sometimes for fun we would call him that. D-Mac, what a gangsta! Last Friday he saw some pictures of himself and pointed to them and said "da-ma-MAC". Very cute indeed, but I didn't think anything about it until E asked him what his name was on Sunday during dinner. He clearly said "Dom-i-nic"! I guess he said it on Saturday and E had been working on it until Sunday and it was more profound. What a smarty pants! I never pushed him because all those silly syllables are such a tongue twister. He he. Now we are working on his address. E worries he'll get lost.

We had such a great day today. Grammi (my step-mom) came over and took us shopping for 'school clothes'. Even thought D only goes to school one day a week she wanted an excuse to get him some cool weather clothes. He got a bunch of stuff; pants, sweaters and socks. One outfit is so cute that he'll wear it for his Christmas pictures. I didn't wash the sweater so it wouldn't pill. Oh, he'll be so cute!

And I got fancy socks so I'm happy!

Now it's off to bed early. I want to start getting up earlier.

HaH! We'll see! I'm sooooooo lazy in the morning.

G'night.

Templates and Mothers

What was up with my template? I fixed it with a generic template from the blogger site. Oh well, it's pink, I like pink.

My mom has been staying with a friend (The Pastor's wife) since Sunday. It has been so peaceful and stress-free. I didn't realize how charged up she is. Bursting in the door full of stress and dramas from the day. All her stories are negative and how someone has done her wrong.

Gha!

Once again she pissed me off with some thing she said. She had talked about living with her friend and The Pastor. When she told me she was going to stay with them she told me that they talked about it and decided no because my mom would always have to be gone when the friend was not in the house "it would not be good for my testimony to be alone in a house with a married man".

Ok I understand that. But she took it further:

"That is why I have a hard time being in the house when you are gone and E is there."

WTF? She doesn't think of E as a son or son-in-law but a married man? She told me that people "wag their tongues" and make accusations behind her back. She told me that I even joked about it and it made her uncomfortable. I asked her what I had said and when pressed she couldn't come up with what I had said. I told E and he was pissed.

I vented to my dad about all this. She is making E feel uncomfortable by either hiding out in her room or going to Wal Mart for hours and won't come home until I get home. My dad was flabbergasted and asked me if she was having impure thoughts about E, which made me laugh; I think he's cute and handsome but I wouldn't think that he would be attractive to a 55 year old lady! But my dad actually told me that she was questioning E's integrity and it hurts his feelings because he does have integrity.

My thing is that this "religion" is getting ridiculous. She is getting stranger and stranger and saying off the wall stuff. I'm so sick of her most of the time. I don't know what to do at this time. I need to think about it for a while.

I'm off to get my vicodin, thank goodness, my knee is killing me. Last week Dr Jeff changed my Rx to Ultracet and it hasn't even touched the pain even though it literally cost three times as much as vicodin for generic. ARG! How dumb. I had to call and plead my case and felt like a drug seeker! But he saw it my way and now hopefully I'll get some relief from the pain. I know it still is being agitated by my weight and hopefully I'll be dealing with that soon.

Ok, time to post and get out of here!

Happy Wednesday!

A week alone...

I just found out that in less than two weeks Big E will be leaving for almost a week. He is going to his hometown to accompany his mom to a sentancing hearing for the man who killed his cousin. It's complicated and private so I can't get into too many details, but I do think he needs to go be with his mom. And his family.

I'm a little freaked out becuase E has never been away from the house, even overnight. I have been gone for a week from him several times going to funerals or like last year to AZ for a vacation with D and my mom. But he's always been here with us when we are home. The protector!

I don't know why I'm so worried. I guess I'm pretty glad that my mom will be here with me and she'll be able to care for D while I have to work Saturday and Sunday. But I'm afraid to be here without him.

When did I turn into such a wussy?

On a side note I always told him if he every was out of town I was going to make Sloppy Joes for dinner. He thinks they're the grossest things ever and I miss them but would never make them knowing how he feels. I never thought that day would really come but now I'm looking forward to at least that.

GO TO SLEEP!!!!

Before I go INSANE!!!

D has been not wanting to go to bed but due to a routine we can coax him into going to bed; we wash hands and brush teeth-usually all this is done with my mom so I can get his jammies ready and find books. Then we change clothes, read books, give kisses good night to everyone and by just DOING the routine we get him into bed. It's still a bit of a struggle because he is so particular--we must read certain books, his jammies must match (tonight he cried because he was wearing a Curious George shirt and Lightening McQueen pants. Please, the pants were red with blue trimmed, they matched but he would NOT wear them.)

He gets up a couple of times, comes in my bedroom door and when he sees me immediately runs out and back into his room. I tuck him back in and try to be very patient because I too hate going to bed and going to sleep.

But then he just lays there. I hear him in the monitor rolling around, singing, yawning and just not sleeping. Last night he decided he wanted a lamp on. (The night before he kept crying for 'Brown Bear, Brown Bear' so I just read it to make him happy.) I would peak in and he was just laying there looking around. He stayed awake until 12:30! I finally heard silence then even breathing and when I checked on him he was finally asleep.

So tonight I put the smack down...No sugary treats, NO POP!! in hopes that he would be calm enough to sleep. Well it is now 11:30 and while he has been moving less he is still up. How is that possible? He doesn't get up too late in the morning-around 8:30 or so, but I'm wondering if we need to get rid of his nap. AKA: my quiet time.

I feel so bad that he just lays there. Why does he do that? Why doesn't he just go to sleep? What is causing him to stay awake?

So frustrating. I just hope this doesn't last very long.

GO TO SLEEP!!!!

I hate spiders!!!!!

This has been a weird Autumn. It only lasted a little more than a month--late July to early September. But what made this Autumn so memorable is the GIANT, HUGE SPIDERS that have been roaming around. I would give some stories but I have literally pushed the memories out of my head; I want to be a strong Momma. I have been so brave this year; killing those tiny animals by flipping off my flip-flop and putting on a brave front then going to a private area and doing the 'I just killed a Fucking Huge Ass Spider' dance. I can teach anyone: jump up and down and shake all your limbs while chanting 'Oh my God ohlehgou, Oh my God ohlehgou' over and over. Yes, any noises will work.

E has told me how brave I am but it's not so much bravery than not wanting my child to be afraid of something simple as a BUG. Because isn't that what they really are: Just Bugs?? (I HATE all bugs, it has been a brave yet long summer).

The reason I bring this up at this time is because I was laying here watching 'Girls Next Door and I turned around and realized I left the window open. Being traumatized for more than a month with behemoth monsters crawling around I am truly traumatized! Every shadow, every dark spot, every eyelash that passes my peripheral vision is a gigantic spider. I'm freaked out tonight and hope I can sleep!

I will be shaking out my blankets and pillows soon and hope that I get some rest.

Uggh.

Damn spiders.

On a good note: Mother suggested Aleve for my knee and it has worked!! Now hopefully it won't make me choke up blood* and I'll be good!!

'Nite!

*I've heard from different people that Aleve will cause stomach bleeding and make you spit up blood. Heh, I'll believe it when I spit it. Thank God cuz my knee is feeling good!!!

The Black Team

Once again I am totally captivated by The Biggest Loser. I love the black team and was so sad that they kicked off Jim. I've been watching with Mother and it's so funny; she cheers everyone on, whoops, hollars and pumps her arm thru the challanges and weigh-ins. She cracks me up. It's been fun.

On the Biggest Loser web site I noticed that they used the same picture for the twins Jim and Bill. They may be identical twins but they are different people. Jeez!

I also like Allison Sweeney from Days as the hostess. She's got so much more personality than ol what's her name from the last seasons. Oh and did I mention that I want Jillian's body, too bad I'd have to work for it!

I got some fiber samples from work and have been adding them to my to my food. I've felt pretty full today and I think between the extra fiber and my super duper multi-vitamin I feel pretty good again today. The fiber is kind of wierd. When I added it to my yogurt it made it a little more slimey. Maybe it was subcontous. I'll keep using it though, I want to see if it helps me any.

Speaking of Days, it's on now so I must go. Oh and I have to still pick up this messy house!

Happy Wednesday.

Still busted up but feeling fine...

My ankle still hurts and my knee makes me walk like a 90 year old lady, but today I had such motivation to get off my ass today. Not only did D and I go for a walk this afternoon but I actually got on my skates and scooted up and down beside my mom's car hanging on for dear life. I suck so bad, but I had such fun.

I don't know where the motivation came from or how long it will last, but I'm enjoying it while I can.

I've been keeping up with all my blogs and I hope everyone the best!