Hey, that's Boo's spoon!!

I finally ran all of D's bath toys thru the dishwasher. Among those toys is a ice cream scoop that he happened to adopt. Yesterday, a few days after I ran those 'toys', he happened to get into the utensil drawer and see it (daddy put the dishes away and didn't realize...), said some 'jibber jabber' about it, then he grabbed the spoon, ran and put it into the bathroom sink (where I let the toys drain).

I"m just surprised how smart he is, so much he sees and retains. A little scary, but very impressive.

I need to watch myself!

Work inside the home moms vs Working outside the home moms

Uh hm, Ok...

Oprah's show today was "Stay at home mom's" vs "working mom's". It was a pretty good show, good points for both sides. I did think that some of the women got a little defensive, but that's to be expected on such a matter.

The only type of mom these shows never talk about is the mom like me: "The work two jobs mom". On the rare occasion that someone asks me what I do I always respond "I'm a stay at home mom and wife during the week and a lab,xray tech during the weekend, and some evenings". I'm usually asked if my marriage suffers, and no it doesn't. We tend to get along better when we aren't together so much!

I know that there are many other women like me, supplementing the income by working off hours, because I work with many of them, and a couple of them are my close friends. So why aren't we profiled? Yohoo, OOOO!

Oprah's big question was "Can Women Have It All?" My answer would be Yes, but with sacrifices. I can see both sides. And I can see the guilt on both sides. The show touched on being guilty on the child-milestones women miss when the child is in daycare, and the achievements missed while a woman is at home with a child. I understand! At times I love my job and daydream of taking over the department and having it thrive; the doctors love me, the managers love me, the higher-up big-wigs love me and our clinic is featured in 'Lab/X-ray weekly'(?)Hmph! But then, when I'm reading Little Boo his books, coloring together, teaching him to undress and dress himself I feel like I could be happy doing just that for the rest of my life. And I miss the weekends sometimes. I miss going to the inlaws, to the park, just sleeping in, missing the occasional dinner, but that is MY sacrifice. Easier than some, I'm sure.

The guilt? I worry that I'm not the best employee; I don't make it to every meeting, I don't check in as much as they want, but I feel like Work is not my first priority. How bad of employee am I? But I want to be a better mom. I always feel like I'm lacking in that department! What improvements can I make? How can I tweak the schedule to make it easier/better for him? What if I cut bath time/story time/night time short, will it be ok? Will he still love me??

I guess in the end it is exactly what Oprah said "We women need to support each other, regardless". Not word for word exactly, but I get the point. I feel lucky that I have the goodness of both worlds, but most of all, for me, I love my son and I love being his mommy, and I'm lucky enough to have an awesome husband that loves to be a daddy. Women make their very difficult decision everyday, let's not judge. Because no matter how much we agree or disagree, one day we may need each other...

I do wish I could win the Lotto, I would love stay home... In a heartbeat...

WHAT WOULD YOU DO?

Just do it already!

I need to get my big old ass on the treadmill tomorrow. No excuses!! Dammit, I get so sick of myself sometimes.

I'm so lazy!

Busy, busy day, So so tired...

Other wise titled as: Nurse so funny I laughed my ass off OR Things you'll never hear in your life time....

Work was hell, but I kept my cool and sense of humor, oh and sense of humanity and had an ok day. I have been exhausted since I got home but now at 1:00 AM I feel good. Go figure.

Big E didn't get this, but he doesn't get my sense of humor even after 10 years so here it goes anyway...

I did a urinalisys on a patient and the program we use didn't like the diagnosis code of 'anal or buttocks pain' so I called the nurse and asked her for another diagnosis code. This is exactly what she said to me in all seriousness:

"She says it is her anus, but was grabbing her vagina!"

I sat stunned for a minute then started to laugh so hard. Who the hell says shit like that? Was that medically correct? Who knows, that kind of humor made it go by today.

Maybe you had to be there, either way, my mood was good!

This and that

I'm watching D take books to E and they are reading together. Usually I have reading duty just as a default, but tonight it's daddy and it's so cute.

I didn't eat all of the NW today. Yay! I feel pretty good, if only I could just do a little bit of exercise.

Speaking of exercise, I received my pilates DVD's. I got
a beginning workout, an intermediate workout because hopefully I'll bet better, and and one for inflexible people that I thought might be slow and not so tough. Maybe I'll get my ass up and try one tomorrow.

I am so addicted to Google Earth. Big E was teasing me: I won't leave the house, but I've been all over the world. I saw the Grand Canyon, (altho I've been there in real life), the Eiffle Tower, The Space Needle, the Pyramids in Egypt, New York, Washington DC! I may never need to leave my room again. I think if I was a crazy person with no respondsibilities that's what I'd do. Lay on my little cot and travel the world! How fun.

D has Toddler Talk tomorrow. He loves that class. I'm thinking about putting him back into music class now that he's a little older and a little more familiar about classes. Besides, he loves music and singing so much. I think he'd really enjoy it now.

It's almost time for CSI. So I got to go. I'm gunna miss Grissom!

Happy Friday!

Snow Day!!

Well, kind of. We've been having a cold snap and some surprising precipitaion came thru leaving the streets slick. We didn't get a ton of snow, but just enough to cover the freezing rain and make driving a bit scarry.

That being said, some people in other areas of our country are probably laughing at us but that's ok, laugh away. I laugh too!

Big E went in to work about two hours late and got there fine. He came home two hours early and had some trouble. It has warmed up slightly yet froze again and the side road he drives on, which is hilly, got horribly slick. He watched for almost an hour people sliding off the road or turning around. He took it sssllllllooooooowww and steady and finally made it to the freeway. He called me panting with anxiety, he had just made it past all the stuck cars and was on the way. Growing up in Michigan gave him some practice in driving in bad weather, and I must say, I would drive with him in the snow/rain/ice. He's good at it.

I stayed in and watched around the clock 'Weather Blast', watching footage of people slamming on their breaks and flying thru the streets crashing into each other. Ha, that's why I stay in. Who cares if you have an SUV or 4-wheel drive, it doesn't mean you can drive like an idiot.



E finally came home and we took D outside. He had a blast.

PS to teenagers and adults alike: Don't slead on the streets, you retards, cars can't stop and you could die!!!!!!!!!!!!

A different relationship

Sometimes a phrase will strike me and get me thinking. Today I heard the phrase "relationship with food" and I've been thinking of it ever since. I have a deep relationship with food; I think of it all the time, even dreaming and chewing in my sleep (embarrasing but true!), it fills a void most of the time and keeps me company when I need it. I've always eaten when I'm bored even in my teens, but it wasn't until I was in my 20's and met a girl who had a huge addiction to food. We became best friends and I thought our friendship would be forever. After eating our way thru four and a half years (and well into the 300 lbs)we found boyfriends and went our seperate ways. It wasn't until we were no longer friends that I realized the ONLY thing we had in common was eating. Looking back our likes and dislikes were nothing alike, but we didn't realize it with Big Macs in our mouths. Oh, we did have bitching about people in common, so I guess there was another thing.


I've never gotten over the 'friendship' with food. I still rely on it and wish I could break that spell. What if I started a relationship with exercise? What if I woke up everyday dreaming of what kind of activity I was going to do that day? What if I couldn't get enough of exercise and snuck in a little when ever I could? What if everytime I felt bored or irritated I hopped on the treadmill and walked my butt off until I felt better? What if I did leg lifts in my sleep instead of the chewing thing? Ha, ha, I'm laughing at the thought too, but what if? I'm much to lazy, but I suppose it's possible.

I think the hardest part would be breaking up with food. As much as I hate it I can't seem to get away from it. But if I actually did then I could do anything!

Happy New Year!

I'm back. I don't know why I was gone so long, just not in the mood I suppose. Christmas and New Year went fine. Very easy going. I just got the tree down last night. Finally. It became one of those things that was just in the room and you didn't really see. But I noticed it yesterday and realized that if I kept procrastinating it would be up next summer.

We are getting cable high-speed internet tomorrow! Yay! E got sick of not being able to play his games (which for some shitty reason the new games want you to register online and be logged on in order to play. Big brother always has his eyes on you!) and having to wait forever for a page to load thanks to all the banners that every site has now. I have been wanting to post pictures not just here, but share with friends and family. To do that over dial-up is almost impossible, but now I will be able to!

D is doing good. He is finally over the crap we all had and is up to no good/being cute. He is talking more and more and it is so much easier now that he can communicate a little. His new favorite movie is "Nemo" or how he says is "Meemo" and could watch it all day if I don't remind him to play with his toys and read books. He loved christmas and opening presents and playing with his cousins. I know that the holidays will get better and more exciting as he gets older.

Tomorrow we are supposed to get some snow. By some I mean a dusting or even *gasp* a half an inch or so!! People get a little freaked when we get any snow. It's not like we live in Denver where it has been awful, but come winter the studded tires come out and people buy those grippy things for their shoes. Lord! Talk about over-reacting!!

It's good to be back and it's been fun catching up to all my regular reads.

Happy Tuesday!