Opps!

I totally forgot that D had a Toddler Talk class today. It was moved from last Friday and I guess his place in this class is coveted and I really need to have him there, but I just forgot today was FRIDAY! I kept thinking all they days this week were different days. Where is my head?

D is actually really improving. I don't think it is the class, per se, I think that his doctors just needed to give him time to grow a little. He really understands comands, he understands when we talk to him. He is getting better about words, "Hi" and "Bye", "Boop" for book, "Mlil" for milk, and sometimes more, "Dee Dow" is Thank you, (which he says all the time, how polite!) "Eee end" is the end and "Gaa gaw" is all done. He can identify his eyes, ears, hair, nose, tummy, foot and butt and funnily says what they are. I think the doctors freaked for nothing in my opinion, but I'm only a mom, not a doctor (Dripping with sarcasm!!).

Sure he still needs to learn to pronunciate, but for cripes sake he's TWO! If he still talks like this when he's ten then I'll worry.

I'm so bloated today. I feel terrible. I found all of our pictures yesterday that we burned on cd's and I was looking at myself at the end of 2003 until about August of 2004 and I was looking HOT! I was from my lowest weight at 204 to about 215 in August but I was looking so cute. Why didn't I feel like I looked good? I remember still feeling so fat and gross, there is a picture of me and D and I wanted to distroy that picture and I remember E wanted me to send it to him at work but I was so embarrassed for people to see it. I look at it now and wonder what the hell was I thinking. I would do anything to look like that now.

Anything but stop eating and drinking wine and moving my ass, I guess.

That is my problem. I want results without having to work at them. It's too hard and I'm too lazy. The last time I lost weight it felt so easy, like it just melted away with not a lot of work. Now it seem so hard.

I'm such a whiner. I'm even getting sick of myself.

I'll shut up now.

So Blah

I leave for AZ in 5 weeks. I'm so so so so fat. Because of that I have NOTHING to wear and I don't want to buy clothes because I need to save my money for vacation. Why did I do this to myself??? *SOB*

My step-dad was so kind, he bought D's plane ticket. I just think that it was so sweet of him to do. Just when I want to kick him in the butt, he does something go generous. He really does have a big heart.

I'm going to feel completely uncomfortable about myself down there. That makes me sad. Does anyone know how to lose 40 lbs in a month????

Just kidding (I think).

Happy Tuesday.

Still here

I'm still here, just really nothing to say. Or rather have something to say, but can't get it straight in my head. Nothing major, though.

I played on a school jungle gym yesterday with D and I'm unbelievably sore. Who knew that would be a great workout for this old lady.

I'll update later when I have more time.

Love to all.