The most sweetest moment

E is laying on the couch, resting and D went over to get on the couch next to him. As he was climbing up D reached over and gave his daddy a kiss on the head. I even heard the smoochie sound. I was so lucky to look at them at the right time. They are both so wonderful.

Current Pictures

A lot of the other blogs I read are not shy about putting up pictures of the ones they love. I wouldn't say I'm too shy, but mostly too lazy. Here are some current pictures.

This one is of D and E in Astoria. Astoria is where E grew up as a middle-schooler, and it is always a great place to sight-see.

Here I am with D at the beach by Peter Iredale a great big rusty ship wreck. You have to be careful walking along because rusty posts stick out like old spine bones and if you aren't careful you'll trip right over them. Everytime we go there it seems like the ship is detearating more and more.

Now here is a pic of D at my dad's house. I wanted to put a close up of D because he is getting so big! My big boy!


That's all for now. I should do this more regularly.

Mish mash Wednesday

I'm still sooo tired and still have zero energy. It's getting old.

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I keep having these little dizzy spells. I wonder why?

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I talked to LAWL yesterday and they gave me the rest of my money and told me that if I ever wanted to come back I could. I was sick of fighting with E ever month when the check deposited. I couldn't take it anymore.

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Speaking of E, he is grating on my last raw nerve. I hate having to defend myself everytime he takes what I say too seriously. And he says I'm sensitive?

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I love my friend Colleen, she is the best.

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Urgent Care is moving to the otherside of the building this week. I don't like it because no one will be with me and my concern is that if we get a STAT patient or an irrate patient I am the only one on that side of the building and you know people will go thru a main door just to find someone to help them and I won't have back-up. I told Dr. N that the first time someone wanders into my hall I'm bringing in a baby gate and putting it in the door way. Fire hazzard or not.

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I ate WAYYY too much today. I feel sick.

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I have to work tonight and I hope I'm not very busy, I have to watch the season finally of LOST!!!! I can't wait.

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I wish I could take a nap!

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Happy Wednesday!!

It's way too quiet in here

My stepmom just came and got D for the weekend. She informed me that she would be bringing him back on Monday instead of Sunday. One more night without my baby boy. I miss him already. The quiet is deafening.

I'll try to be strong.

Awkward and sad!!!!

We were looking up fore*closure homes last night just to see what is out there and what kind of deals you can get when E came across our NEIGHBORS HOUSE!!!!! Our friends from right next door. We knew they were having troubles, but they don't really get into much detail about it and everything seems to be going ok. Their business is getting stronger and making more money so I didn't ever think anything like this would happen! E and Jr talk about money more than me and Jen do, but E was under the impression that everything would be ok, too.

I really like them and wish them the best. I don't want them to move much less be kicked out, they are so nice and they are great neighbors. I wish there was something we could do, but E said that we should never tell them we know. I agree, but I'm so sad. I hope everything works out!!!

We need a budget.

I was supposed to be recording Oprah's Legends Ball on the east coast broadcast, but prez Bozo had to address the state, so it messed it up. He better not mess up the west-coast broadcast or I'll be pissed. I think he knows Oprah is more powerful than he'll ever be.

Anyway, everyone in our household is thankfully healthy! Yea!!! It took D about a week to recover but when he did his attitude improved greatly, he only had one meltdown and was otherwise completely cuddly!

Speaking of our household, we are broke. Very broke, no back-up broke. We had gotten comfortable using our credit cards as back up when I was off work when D was born. That was two years ago and the comfort has been going on! We hit the last of our limit this month and all our cards are maxed out. It's really ridiculous because we make pretty good money. It's just that we (ok, I) spend money without even thinking about it. I'm always running up to the store and swiping my debit card on things that we "need". E, bless his heart, has never given me a budget, he just tells me when we get low on funds and he's given me a credit card to use when I want. Well, that is all about to change. I presented him with a plan today to get us back on our feet: I'm going to turn in my debit card to him (actually I'll put it in a safe place, the point is that I'm not going to carry it around with me) and get a weekly household allowance of $100. I picked that nice round number, I don't know if that will be enough, and he gets $20 for extra beer, gas, going out to lunch on Fridays. With my $100 I will need to get groceries (!) put gas in my car, any co-pays, parking fees (our dumb library charges to park) and extras for us. We'll see, E said we'd adjust it as we go along if we need to. That way he can just focus on getting the bills paid without another hand in the mix, he won't have to worry about how much I'm spending and when. Soon, we'll have a savings account again and the budget won't have to be soooo strict. I really hope!

Dinner is almost done and I guess I should finish it so I can feed my guys. Have a good Monday!

Sick, part 2

What ever I had I passed it on to D. He has never really been sick before and so by last night I just lost it. He got sick on Thursday night with the flu part and has had cold symptoms sense. But he still pukes in the evenings and he really won't eat. In between being sick he acts fine, maybe a little moodier than usual, it is weird. Since he has never really been sick before, I don't know what I'm supposed to do. He threw up two times last night and I freaked. E kept telling me to 'calm down' and that just pisses me off worse! I finally screamed at him enough that he decided to take D to the ER, but when we got there not only was D acting and looking fine, the ER wait was about 4-5 hours. I walked in and it was just packed, people sitting around, yucking it up like social hour. Nobody seemed emergent and it irritated me. We left and D was fine for the rest of the night, a little whiny, so we put him to bed early and he fell asleep right away.

Crazy times.

I need to get this house in order and I actually feel like I have some energy today. So I will get off my ass now and get to cleaning while I feel good about doing it.

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Tired, bored, sick and stuff.

I've come to blogger about 10 times to post this last week and I'm just not feeling it. I'm really not feeling much of anything except blah. (I just took my pills, maybe that will help.)

I was sick as a dog on Monday. I woke up feeling not right, my stomach was crampy and I was sweaty yet cold. I had this overwhelming feeling to puke. I waited as long as I could as E kept hitting snooze--we only have one shower in the big bathroom and I didn't want to smell it up for him, yet I didn't want to be sick right next to him in the little bathroom, so when I couldn't take it anymore I just went to the big bathroom and barely shut the door when hell broke loose from my tummy. It was bad. After that I was so thirsty I drank some water and that came up. I finally came to my senses and stopped drinking water but that didn't help, I puked anyway about every 30 minutes. I took my temp and it read 101.3 and rising. The chills were horrible.

(Sorry about that very graphic paragraph.)

I called Eric at about 8:00 to ask him to come home but he had called a meeting and couldn't. My mom was working all day so she couldn't come over, so I basically only got up to get sick or feed D and he had to take care of himself. Poor baby, he did really well though, he didn't make too much of a mess and didn't have any breakdowns. I felt so guilty, but he did good.

That evening was no better, although E was home to tend to Dominic and I could finally rest in peace. By Tuesday I was 95% better, but I have felt so tired and have had no energy since. My wife and homemaking skills are really suffering and I just don't have the motivation to get anything done. I usually get up every morning to make E's lunch but these last mornings he's had to do it himself. What did he take today? A chunk of smoked Gouda and a cup of noodle soup. (Sorry Honey! I'll get up tomorrow.) I didn't know whether to laugh or cry when he told me. To make it up to him I'll probably even make dinner tonight!!!

I have to work early tonight and thankfully get tomorrow off. I don't like working so much during the week, I really miss E, but we have a new lab system that I needed training on. Hopefully all this scheduling flexibility I'm giving them will get me some brownie points on my review in June. MAYBE I'll get a decent raise!

Happy Thursday!