New Skin

I finally got this new template to work, for a while there I thought I would just give up, but after a quick break, I did it. I just have to fill in "my reads" on the side, but that may take me a few days, I'm pretty slow at this stuff. What do you think about it? Please let me know, because I love comments!

'The Biggest Loser' was not on in our area last night. The local channel had some local "talent show", just a bunch of kids trying to be like 'American Idol'. I think they win a car or something like that. But why did they have to program it right on that 8:00 time slot?? I was pretty pissed and with nothing better to do I emailed not only the local station, but NBC as well. Have I heard back? Of course not, as I am just a little drop in this big pool of life.

My Pilates DVD hasn't even been shipped yet. I'm wondering at this point if it will ever be. Next time I will definitely buy from a person that has good feedback!

I can hear that Dominic has found some sissors, so I better save him. I also smell some poopiness.

Being a mom is fun.

Happy Hump Day!

Pilates and weigh in (245.2)

I ordered a Winsor Pilates tape off eBay and it comes with a yoga ball. The person that I'm buying from is a new seller, so I'm trying to be patient, I'm sure it will come soon enough. I watch the pilates infomercial on TV at least once a week and it looks pretty good, so I went on eBay and bought the first one that was up. I was highest at $20, and someone at the last minute really wanted it. They kept bidding and bidding, but in the end I won, haha!

Ahem, anyways, I don't know really how well I'll do, but I'm hoping I'll be able to straggle along and get better as time goes by.

Weigh in was a bust, I only lost .6 of a pound. That only made me give up a little this weekend. I'm hoping to redeem myself these next four days. I was talking to my mom about weight loss. She lost weight many years ago, actually, both her and my dad lost a lot of weight. They cut their calories, but the main thing I remember is that they would get up at 5:00 am to walk/run and soon just run. And in the evenings they would take a 2.5 mile walk. I asked my mom if she thought it was true that 75% of weight loss and maintenance was exercise. She agreed, and said the that is how they lost the weight so quick. For several years after that they were very active; my mom ran races and my dad played in raquetball tournaments and rode long distance bike rides, including being part of a triathalon team. (Looking at my dad now you'd never know, and that makes my mom really sad for him.)

I asked her questions that I've always wanted to ask a person that has lost weight, but never have because I always forget that she was big. She told me how people treated her differently (better, with more respect) and how she felt, and how sometimes she still felt like that fat person and would have to remind herself that she wasn't. It was a pretty good talk. Sometimes I forget that my mom is a person, not just my mom.

Little D wants some attention, so I guess I better run.

Happy Tuesday (the only evening I get off this week)

Thursday, finally

I want to write a post, but my left hand is so asleep that I can't type. Grrr.

Also, D is trying to stick a cord into my butt cheek. I guess he's trying to plug me in so I can get some energy to play with him.

More later.

Busy at the Urgent Care

It was so busy at work this weekend. I worked with a NP that was running my ass off. And it seemed that the only people that came in were either sore throats or really, really old people that were Short Of Breath, having chest pains, or running fevers. Ohh, it was fun! Did it make the day go by any faster? NO! At 11:30 I thought it was 2!



This is an older picture, but I really do have a job! I even usually like it! (Mostly I just wanted to experiment on adding pictures!)

I have a doctors appointment at 4:30, so I really should be getting ready. I missed it on Friday! I feel bad, I've never been a 'no show' before! So I want to be early today.

Happy Monday, hope everyone is doing well!

Up .8 (245.8)

Phththth!!!

Yes, I did gain weight, although not as much as I thought I would. I'm bummed out, but not beating myself up yet.

I think that last night it finally hit me that if I'm going to lose the weight, I'm really going to have to change my life style. I think that I've had it in the back of my head that the weight would one day magically disappear and I could go on eating like I do and never gain an ounce! What a dream! People always say that to lose weight permanently requires a life style change. I always thought those people were just spouting a bunch of psycho-babble, but this week it may have hit me finally. I was thinking that I needed to 'live like a skinny person and that might help me lose weight'. Last night I realized that I'd need to live that way forever, or the fat would come right back. I'll always need to watch what I eat, and I'll always need to exercise. Every once in a while I remember this, but it never sinks in. Maybe this time it will.

In other news, Eric is concerned that Dominic hasn't started to walk yet. He will take a few steps between us, but he won't even really stand on his own unless it is by accident. Once he realizes that no one is holding him up, he flops down on his but and won't get up again until someone helps him. I'm trying not to worry, but when Daddy starts, it plants the seed in my brain.

My coffee is done. I love warm coffee on rainy days like today.

Have a good weekend.

Say it ain't so

I went ahead and got on my scale today and it says that I'm up! How can that be? I've been pretty good, not perfect, but not drinking and late night binging (although since I don't binge at night it seems I get a huge case of the munchies around 4:30 in the afternoon. Hmmm.)

I do wonder if my gaining has anything to do with the time of the month. The last couple of days I have felt crampy and today I really hurt. I have not had my visitor for a long while now since I had my IUD put in, but it feels like a doozie is coming my way. Ug! (Sorry, so much info, I know.)

Today I must clean the bathrooms, they have been ignored for way to long now. Also on the chores list: I would like to get most of the laundry done and get my bedroom clean. I miss snuggling in my bedroom, I only like to do that when it is clean and cozy.

I hear the boy shouting, he must be done with breakfast!

Happy Thursday!

Monday

Nothing much is going on today, which is nice. I feel very relaxed and not a complaint in site! Rare for me.

I went to WW on Friday and my official starting weight is a yucky 245! Only 5 pounds away from 250! The weekend was not so hot, my eating in the evenings is still out of control, but I'm hoping over time that it gets better. But, wow, am I hungry at 28 points. I feel like after breakfast and lunch, I barely have any points for dinner. I've been eating a lot of salads.

I need to start walking again. I think I will have E put the treadmill in the TV room again and I'll try to do a little walking in the morning. I think that I've discovered a way to keep Dominic from climbing all over the treadmill--put all his toys around it and he'll stay away for sure.

I will have to take it slowly for sure this time as I had a mishap over the weekend. I was walking to the bathroom on Saturday night and my right foot slipped out on something while my left foot stayed in place--I landed doing the splits!! Lord, did it ever hurt! My right hamstring is so sore, I can barely get up sometimes. I get so frustrated! I fall over way too much.

Dominic finally got one of his molars completely in. How exhausting for all of us. And I see many more to come.

The best thing that happened this weekend is when I walked out of the X-ray room and across the hall was my handsome husband and my sweet baby. They came to visit me! I loved seeing their sweet faces during work. It was such a joy. I was busy, but I snuck in some visiting time anyway. What a treat. My honeys really love me!

Yay, The Biggest Loser is coming back! I can't wait!

Ug, I have to go, my work is calling.

Happy Monday!

My Arizona Vacation

We had such a great time in AZ. E had never been there before and it was our first vacation together, not only just the two of us, but as a family!

The wedding was beautiful. I got to meet my Sister in law and she is a doll. I know that they will be great together.

D was such a good boy the whole time. And I worried about the plane trips for nothing; he wound up sleeping the way there and back.


D's first plane trip. 

Our first stop the day after the wedding was Jerome, AZ. An old mining town. This old guy started to buy up the old equipment and put the “Ghost town” up.

D got friendly with a mule there that would stomp and ring a bell and you could feed it carrots. But as soon as D touched it he jerked his hand back. He doesn’t like the feel of fur.


Me, D and a mule named Pedro Gonzalez. 



Me and D in a mine shaft. 


D and daddy. 

I really see just how grown up my little tiny baby is getting in this picture. It brings a tear to my eye.


My big boy! 

The next day we went to Montezuma’s Castle where the temp was a lovely 106 degrees. We only stayed for about 15 minutes, long enough to take pictures. Whew, it was hot!!


Me and D at Montazuma's Castle. 

From there we went to Sedona. Oh my, is it beautiful there! We came around the bend and there was this huge red rock mountain. No picture could do it justice, so I picked a picture of us. Next time we go to Arizona, I want to stay the night there and look at all the little shops.


All of us in Sedona. 

The next day we went and stayed in Winslow, Az. It was ok. This is about it for their sights. You know, the old Eagles song?


Standin' on the corner... 

During the whole trip we found that people in Arizona drive much more leisurely than here in the Northwest. At times we would get frustrated with people and their slow ways and on the flatter area E would drive really fast. Well, it finally caught up with him and yes, that’s him getting a speeding ticket. His mom likes how humble he looks.


E fought the law, but the law won! 

Meteor Crater was interesting, but maybe not quite a spectacular as I thought it would be. Maybe if you could climb down and look up it would be different. I think that aerial pictures I’ve seen on the web are way cooler than ones you can take yourself.


Me at Meteor Crator. 

Last but not least was the Grand Canyon. I love it there. No picture will ever show how it really looks. It is breathtaking!


E pulling a Michael Jackson pose with D. 


D at the Grand Canyon. 


The beautiful Grand Canyon. 

We had such a great time. My family really love Eric and Dominic and it was great to see my guys just meshing with my family. I knew that they would, as E is very much like my uncles and cousins: easy going and quiet, yet funny and smart. We plan on going back next year and possibly making it a yearly vacation. I would love for D to grow up knowing his big wonderful family.

Foul, foul mood

Watch out, cuz I feel like shit on toast today.

I absolutely hate spiders. I think of them as mini monsters and I wish they would all be destroyed. Today, I had to kill a giant one in my bedroom. D and I were just gunna lay in my bed and watch the news and I had a horrible feeling. I looked up and this sucker was so big that it had a hard time moving. He barely fit between the ceiling and the border. I took some Lysol spray and finally got him out of the border and instead of crawling down the wall, he goes across the ceiling. So, I had to dump out a goodwill box I started and squashed him with it, all the time praying the angle was right and he wouldn't jump out onto my head. My aim was good and I indeed killed him.

I wasn't going to lay in my bed now, I was too creeped out. So I grabbed the baby and we went to the TV room. There across from us was the first spiders brother!! This time I grabbed the vacuum and sucked it up, praying that it wouldn't find it's way out. So we laid in the living room after I had checked for any more spiders. Thank God that was it. My point is: Could a day start out any shittier?

What else?... It is 2:30 and my damn arms have not waken up yet. I hate carpal tunnel.

Dominic is still not feeling well. His fever is still up a bit and he is whiney and needy. My allergies are acting up and that makes me want to have every one far away from me.

I had a beautifully cleaned kitchen yesterday, then my sweet honey decides to can tomatoes. Nice. Now my kitchen is a huge disaster. Will I ever be one of those people with a clean kitchen for more than an hour???

Ok, enough of my gripes. Thanks for letting me vent!

Rinse, Repeat

My last post from this morning got lost in the great abyss. I'll try to recap...

No AZ pictures yet, too lazy, to tired.

I'm ultra fat and keep gaining. WW has no registration fee, maybe I'll rejoin and really give it a try. I gotta do something, nothing fits me anymore.

Little man is running a fever, last checked under his arm was 102.1. He was super conspitipated this morning, then every thing came out--PU! Later I touched his two molars that are coming in and he started to cry. Poor baby. I gave him some childrens Tylenol and put him here in the office with me cuddled in two croched blankies (his favorite kind) but he is such a light sleeper, I just put him in his crib because every sound would wake him back up.

I'm sure he'll be back to his regular self soon. My little sweetie.

Well, I'm off to find a WW meeting. I don't think I'll tell anyone in my life about this just yet, just keep it between us. I don't want the pressure.

Happy Wednesday.

Home at last

We are home. We got in from AZ just a few hours ago. What a great trip. I will tell more soon and put up pictures too.

I have to give props to the little man, Dominic. He did so good on this trip! Five or six hours of driving, strapped in his car seat, in and out of the car over and over again, and he never complained. He just sat in his seat, looking out the windows, singing and chattering. Oh sure at times you could see that if we were to strap him in one more time he might just try to bite you, but, man, I have an awesome child. I think I had more breakdowns than he did! I'm so proud of him.

He's awake from his nap. In his own crib. Just down the hall.

There's no place like home!