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Tired thoughts

I haven't been on the computer much this week due to the fact that my brain cells are fried. Every morning for a little over a week I have been wide awake from 3 am to 5:30 am, just 20 minutes before E's alarm goes off. My mind is abuzz with all sorts of stupid random thoughts with one main thought that my mind seems to wander back to. Last night's main thought? Tom Cruise (ew) and Katie Holmes. I kept trying to figure out where she is from, what show or movie. Sure I've seen her in US mag, but that's about it. Hmm, well I'm sure dating TC will boost her career, now people like me will finally know her from somewhere! Sadly, I actually couldn't sleep because of this! These are the things that are running around my head in the early hours. Ug, very frustrating.

On the diet front, Tuesday, my first day counting cals, was a huge success. I was at 1200 calories for the day! Wednesday, however was a disaster, but at least there is no more breakfast bread to hinder my progress. Yesterday would have been great if I had used my willpower against the pizza that they had at work. Many nibbles brought me up to 2400 calories. So, I will try once again today to get this beast under control.

OH! Flashback: I saw harraches at the store the other day. That cracked me up, I never thought I'd see those again! (My mom used to say never buy shoes that had the word 'aches' in the name.)

Happy Friday! (Wow, it really is Friday!)

Mommy and me time

Yay! In a few hours I will be seeing my good friend Meg and her kids for a visit. It feels so nice to go out to see a friend, talk, laugh, share funny stories. Even though I see a few people at work, there is hardly any time to socialize. We seem to be getting busier and busier.

I'm glad that D will be able to interact with other kids. Sometimes I think he's missing out on that, socializing with other children. Does it matter? Only one out of three times he's been around other kids has he really interacted with them. With the exception of Meg's daughter, who kissed and hugged on D when we were with them last time (so, so cute!) the other kids just kind of ignored D and he played by himself. I wonder if that's normal?

Gymboree was suggested to me by a patient who is a preschool teacher and I might look into that. I'm wary though, I'm kind of a germ-a-phobe.

Little one is sleeping and I should be using that time to get ready, but the internet is so addicting!

Happy Thursday!

My honey

The team leader in my lab/x-ray department quit on Monday. I was talking to my x-ray manager yesterday and she asked me if I was going to apply for the job. I laughed and asked her who would take care of Dominic? But a little seed was planted and I thought about it all day. I mentioned it to E when he made his afternoon call.

"It would mean more money for us. We could pay off some bills." I said

"What would we do with D?"

"We could think of something. Maybe my mom could take him. Maybe a small daycare." (I can't believe that I would say that, but it was just a thought)

After he got home and I was getting everything ready for dinner, getting D set up in his chair and setting things out E came over to me and gave me a big hug and said:

"You know, we are doing fine with the money we have. You are such a good mommy and I can't see putting D in daycare after you've been home with him for this long. He needs you."

Sometimes he is the sweetest man in the world.

Tuesdays rambles

First of all I have to say that I'm totally SICK of being fat! Lately I have felt literally like a 90 year old woman. My feet, knees and hips are killing me, my back is all in knots, I keep getting nose bleeds because I'm sure my blood pressure is thru the roof and I'm sure that being so heavy is what is making my carpel tunnel flare up so bad. I feel like I'm slowly killing myself and for what? Food? If it is so great then why can't I even remember what I ate yesterday? I need to do something about it NOW, because at this rate I'll be 300 lbs by summer!

Anyway...

My bedroom is green. Thursday E came home and declared that he liked the color and that night he helped me tape off the room. On Friday I started painting bright and early before Dominic woke up. During his afternoon nap I put on the second coat. I never realized how fast one could paint if they really pushed it! I thought it would take all day, but it actually only took about 2 1/2 hours of painting. Masking it off the night before was the real work.

I think it turned out really pretty. The big sploch I put on the wall looked a lot darker than it actually is. The color is so warm and cozy, and it's nice to have color on the wall and not just stark white. The house was painted primer white before we moved in and while it made the house seem big and clean, once we moved in it felt like a box. I still keep going in there to look at it because it looks so pretty. Now I can't wait to paint other rooms. The next three will be the master bath (I think I already have those colors picked out), the office (something deep and rich) and the hall way (neutral, to bring all the colors together). Our house is really turning out to be a home and I love it so much!

Today is supposed to be beautiful (well, better than it has been in a while) so I think that little D and I will go for a walk. He loves the fresh air and looking around when he's in his stroller. Yesterday the sun came out for a little bit later in the afternoon and I laid a sleeping bag in the back yard and we sat out there, basking in the warmth. He loved it, he would touch the grass (then started pulling it out!), he'd watch the giant blue jay that lives in our tree chase other birds and at one point a huge bumble bee flew over us in circles and he just watched it fly around and around. It took every thing in my power to not start screaming and run inside! I'm so afraid of bugs (even flies!) and I don't want Dominic to be afraid of them too. He's a boy, isn't he supposed to collect them and have them as pets? I think the first time he holds out his chubby little hand and it has a bug in it will be a true test of my mothering skills. I hope I don't throw up!

Happy Tuesday! I hope it's beautiful where you live!

Bravery

I'm going to bite the bullet and finally paint my bedroom tomorrow. I've wanted to but have been afraid to do it. What if I don't like it? What if the color is wrong and looks horrible on the walls? I've been using D as my excuse not to paint, with the fumes and all, but we are going to be living and sleeping in the other side of the house so he should be ok.

Before he came home we painted D's room blue. It was a lot darker in person than on the paint chip. It doesn't look bad, I actually like it.

Ok, between that paragraph and this one I went and painted a 1x2 foot patch on the wall. It is pretty dark, and the green is more green than I thought it would be, almost khaki. Not the color I had in mind for my bedroom. I wanted a softer color. Lighter and airy. Now I don't even know if I want green!

Maybe it would look better here in the office?

I'll ask E's opinion when he gets home.

Me and my hairbrain ideas!

Weird song and biggest fear

The new play station hand-held thingy has the strangest commercial. The guy turns into all sorts of weird characters then sits on a bench, playing with the thingy. Anyway, it's mostly the song that trips me out. I don't know what it is about it, the beat, the guitar, the voice, I don't know, I just like it. It's not even my taste of music, but I'm attracted to it just the same. E got the mp3 for me the other day and I've been listening to it over and over. I even got up and danced a few steps. What a sight!! Dominic just looked at me like I was a goober and went along playing with his toys. I think he's getting used to me.

*****

Last night E called me into the back yard saying he saw a fire. I ran out side hoping it wasn't the neighbors behind us and it wasn't. E wanted to know where it was, so I hopped in the car and found it, right on the main road that our road is off of, maybe 1/5 of a mile away. I sat with many other people in a parking lot across the street from the house and watched it burn. It was creepy. It was completely gutted, you could see straight thru the house. I don't know if it was occupied or not, someone had been working on the roof earlier in the day. The whole situation was weird, we didn't hear any sirens, and the firemen didn't seem frantic, just working along, talking with people, no one was crying on over the loss of their house, and there wasn't anything about it in the news to give details.

Fire is my biggest fear. Every once in a while I wake up with a start and mentally go thru my 'fire escape plan'. I've had a plan for every house I've ever lived in ever since I was a little girl and they taught us to do that in grade school. I had a friend get severely burned when I was in high school and saw what a horrific ordeal it was. It has been burned (no pun intended) into my brain ever since, so I always try to be prepared.

Watching that house last night gave me nightmares all night long. Next time I think I'll stay home and mind my own business.

Grrrr, D is supposed to be sleeping, but I hear him wailing. I think that crazy boy is thru with taking naps, but I know that I'm not thru making him take them!

Happy Hump Day!

I can't think of a title

In the last five days I either have not been able to get on blogger or I lost two posts. Now today I have nothing to say.

Every Monday my house looks like a typhoon whipped thru it and it is already 2:10 and I haven't done anything.

Oh yeah, all of my fish are dead. I took the last rotten corpse out this morning. That really bummed me out. I think we'll try one more time. We are going to flush the tank two times and buy fish from a different place. Maybe I should have listened when the Pet Smart guy tried to give me fish from the new stock instead of the established fish. He mentioned that they had just had a problem. I tried to be nice and take the blame. Listen and learn, I guess.

I'm considering the carpel tunnel surgery for my left hand/arm. I'm tired of feeling like I have a dead, cold stump attached to my body. Alot of people that I've talked to that have had it done have had great success. I should make an appt with my doctor.

This weekend was insane! I did almost 20 strep tests, not to mention a ton of x-rays and urine tests. Now, I have a sore throat on my left side and I keep thinking "Uh oh, I got too close to some one." I work on Wednesday evening and if my throat still hurts I might test myself. I hope I'm ok because I kissed little D on the mouth!! Where was my head?

Ok, that's it for now. I better not lose this post or I will scream!

Happy Monday.

Smelly pukiness

A while back I got a coupon for a free can of Nestle formula. We ususally use Enfamil, which has proven to be quite good. But how could you go wrong with a free can of any formula? That stuff is so spendy!

I skipped home with my little can and now a few days into it Dominic has been spitting up/puking again, something that has really subsided in the last month. And, ug! does it stink. I compared the ingredients and in the enfamil the first ingredient is 'powdered nonfat milk', and in the nestle?- 'enzymatically hydrolyzed reduced mineral whey protein concentrate (from cow's milk). What is that? Is that powdered nonfat milk? I don't know, but is sure stinks, so today I'm going to go get some real formula. I guess you get what you pay for.


My new friend C from work was telling me about another friend of hers that lets her kids "watch TV all day long". Uh oh. When she asked me if I let D watch TV, I said that of course I didn't!! I was ashamed to admit while he doesn't watch it, it is usually on because I love TV. I don't think that I would ever use it as a sitter for my child, and E and I have discussed that D will not sit in front of the TV all day and he will go out and play, so I'm in a quandary; should I just stop watching it so that we can get into the habit of doing other things? Or is it ok to watch it sometimes? And how often is sometimes?

Hmmm, I just re-read that paragraph. If I'm too ashamed to admit how much TV I watch, maybe I do have a little, tini-tiny problem!

OK, I'll shut it off now.

Happy Tuesday.

Tired

This whole time change thing is bizarre to me still after all these years. I was born and raised in AZ and we never did this 'spring forward, fall back' nonsense. I think I may start a petition to stop this whole day light savings time. Why do we need it to be light at 10 pm in the summer?

Ohhh, I'm so sleepy.

My carpal tunnel has been so bad lately. I know it's because I have gained so much weight. This morning I hopped on the scale and WOW! I'm so fat right now! Last week I got on the treadmill and noticed that night I didn't have the ice-cold, numb, tingly, dead arms that I usually have. The next day when I didn't get on the treadmill my symptoms were back. I did that thru the week and sure enough, every time I walk my arms are so much better thru the night. So, I'm off to walk. Right now! Maybe it won't help my weight, but if it helps my arms and hands, I'm all for it!!

Happy monday!